Hey guys and gals! Are you ready to read some words by one of THE premier "guy who never updates his stuff as much as other people do"?
I sure am!!!!
So I haven't said any words at any of you for, what? weeks? months? I'm not sure! As time seems to be an utter mystery to me, only popping it's non-corporeal head into my room from time to time to remind me that we're all slowly degrading meat sacks living on an infinitesimally small inconsequential ball hurdling through an infinite black void......
Also I hope to actually provide you some sort of update and to remind the kind and hopeful souls who watch me with words of encouragement.
So. Update time.
I have been drawing.
Wow. That went by pretty fast. Let's try this again, only this time I'll try to elaborate.
I have been drawing a lot.
That didn't seem to be too much longer. Also it was a lie, so maybe not an update so much as a wishful thinking/alternate universe where I am productive.
Let's try this one last time. Only now I'll try telling the truth, and use more than four words. And wear pants.
Probably shouldn't have said that last part.
I HAVE been drawing, but not enough as I should be doing and I say that not as the typical "I'm not drawing as fast as I want to" whiny pitch I usually employ and more the "I'm physically not drawing too much because I'm sort of getting burnt out by how long I'm taking to do this darn chapter" kind of not drawing a lot. I'm trying to finish Chapter 2 and I actually only have two or three pages to ink left, then it's back to the original page I started several weeks back to tone and finalize them to upload. I cringe when I think back to, oh LAST YEAR, where I had insane machinations to be done with the second chapter in, at the time, two months.
Indulge me for a moment and let me just complain at you. Can I do that? My dear, sweet, sweet followers in what I can only assume a dozen or so people will actually read. I know I can come off as a tad self-deprecating and I'm sure it's annoying to hear me lament the same complaints at you over and over again. The fact that when I started this, what, two years ago? Maybe more I seriously have no clue, I had aspirations to be much further along.
In the first year I completed the Prologue, the Introduction and Chapter One and even started some of Chapter Two. All in the first year! Now it seems Chapter two from beginning to end is taking four times as long and I. Don't. Like. It!
In all this time to complete Chapter Two I have neglected drawing anything else, which leaves my poor portfolio severely lacking in any original content or diverging subjects.
Now don't take all this to mean I don't want to continue drawing Fallout: Equestria, or that I'm unhappy with the current work I have now. I LOVE drawing the comic and I LOVE the work I am currently working on. I want to continue drawing FoE and I have plans to expand the comic beyond DA so it can be read in an easier fashion (though not in any physical capacity). I guess I'm only saying this because I have felt a general malaise and I needed to vent this to someone, so why not the very people who enjoy my work so much. Whether that's a good thing or not, I'm not sure, as I've lost the capacity to interact with people in a normal way.
I suppose I feel this way sometimes because I'm always comparing myself to other artists who seem to complete a new piece every week. Their portfolios are bursting with work whereas I feel mine is a bit anemic when it comes to quantity, though if you look at the amount of pages I've drawn for Foe it is actually over 100 pages thus far, so while it feels like I'm not doing anything, I have in actuality drawn quite a bit.
I guess what I'm saying is, Don't compare your work and life to somebody else, for that's a sure way to degrade the work and effort you've already put into yourself.
It's at this point in my rant that you've seen me berate, congratulate, bemoan and inflate myself to the point where you're starting to wonder if I'm having some sort manic/depressive breakdown. I assure you I'm not, the point of this entry was to update you on where I am and where the comic is currently, and while I originally only wanted to update you and give a cogent reason as to why the rest of Chapter two is taking so long, it seems it has turned into a somewhat self-searching therapy session, where I am using you as an echo chamber of my own thoughts. So, thank you. I apologize if this entry seemed somewhat self-serving or melodramatic. Yes, I'm something of a goof and many of my past writings have been barley intelligible ravings that quickly turned down nonsense avenue, so it's only a matter of time before I come back here and wax philosophical and write something of a more grounded and serious nature.
That's it for now. I'm feeling better having got that off my chest I think, so I'll take this opportunity to thank all of you again and I hope the next time I talk to all of you it's because I have just uploaded the rest of Chapter Two and I am basking in all the praise that I feed off of like some sort of psychic feel good leech.
I love all of you!